Saturday, March 25, 2006

Revelations of a Cynical Mind

The world silent and dark
Foul stenches floating thru air
Blinding my senses wth them
Suffocating me in their embrace.

Here i was wanderng,searching
For a way out of this world
For eons,i had benn doing do
With no luck in my ventures.

Trapped beneath these ruins i was
Frm the time i cud see and hear myself
Noone else but me alone was here
The lone being of this world.

I did shout and cry out loud
But noone came or returned my calls
All my cries hopelessly lost out
In the swivelling typhoons around me.

Once i had,sometime back
A glimmer of light in darkness around
Fuelled by hope i trudged along
Towards the light,the promise of escape.

Sacrificing all that i bulit around me
To survive in this abnormal world
I rushed headlong into the darkness
Towards the burning light of deliverance.

But the happened the unthinkable
For the first time in my existance
I knew what fear was,not simple fear
But raw all consuming fear.

It was not the light of hope
Nor was it the promise of escape
It was but a trap set for me
By forces unknown to lure me out.

I knew it when the light vanished
And when i felt the darkness again
More menacing that it ever were
The stench so foul that i almost lost my mind.

I found myself hurtling down
Like a doll,into depths unknown to me
But now i am trapped again,but beneath
The world i hated so bad before.

Now as i think of the past,
I knew i was lucky then
This new prison of mine for me
Is much more terrible than the one above.

I had but little peace up there
On the world that was once mine
Now i am beneath in this hell
Peace is smthng i will never have.

Each passing day brings more pain
I feel myself growing weaker and weaker
Emotions drained out of my soul
By this world,like someone sucking out my blood.

With each passing day,it gets worse
I am decayng inside,every moment,
Now i feel a new stench rising,
Yhe decayed smell of the man who i once was.

Now at this moment of hopelessness and despair
I find that i get a rare insight
Am still searching for those who were there
Who wanted me to suffer so bad a fate.

Now i realise its noone but me
Who pushed myself into this fateful prison
Maddened and blinded by people around who
Once were my friends,i walkd into this on my own.

Now in these dying moments of my life,
I find that all is clear to me
The world where i was,where i am now
Is nowhere but within me,Inside me.

My mind was the prison i was in
My mind is the prison i am in
So for one last time,i pray for an answer
GOd deliver me from this,with my Death.